I think I’ve finally convinced myself I’m in love with abstract algebraic equations involving multiple-sided die. It might be naïve of me to concern myself with fields and rings but I have to graduate with something. Then the problem struck me, what am I doing, I just need to find something that I want to do. Usually I feel I am failing at everything I do and everyone I’m involved with but today I guess I don’t feel so bad. I still have my childhood guilt complex and the all the relationships it likes to wreck until now.